CAWD-706 Even if I get a kind, stable boyfriend... In the end I want to be toyed with by scumbag men who treat me roughly like an object or an onahole — 伊藤舞雪

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Not everyone wants to be treated gently. Being treated roughly and carelessly suits me just fine. They say it’s the age to get married… Friends around me are getting married one after another… Maybe I should settle down too… Up until now I’d only dated jerks. I was toyed with and had a terrible time. I felt a certain emptiness. For the first time in my life I got a kind, serious, devoted “normal boyfriend.” The stable boyfriend I’d always wanted… or so I thought. But when I actually dated a normal man, there was no excitement, it wasn’t enough… It felt awkward… I couldn’t be my true self… I kept telling myself this was fine. But I couldn’t. My cheating ex called me out — I could have said no, but I went. Maybe somewhere I was hoping to be held. His objective was my body… even knowing that, I couldn’t refuse… “No, stop, don’t”—despite my words I got aroused. His older brother was a born playboy, experienced with women. While my boyfriend slept beside him, his brother made a move on me. How could two brothers be so different in personality and in how they treat women… I indulged in a situation that couldn’t be exposed. In the end, when my affair with the brother was discovered and I was dumped, I also slept with a womanizing coworker from the company. I was made to give a secret blowjob in an izakaya, we had a 3P in the office late at night… Being treated like an object, like an onahole, handled roughly—this is just right for me.